***Thursday is Weigh In Day...I weigh myself ONCE a week. I can't jump on the scale every day, all times of the day, when I feel fat, before a date....too much on my medicated brain. lol! Once a week is good for me. I'm a born again scale person. I'm just now embracing the scale. I avoid it all thru my teens and twenties....***
February 10, 2011
Down to 223lbs
(16 lbs lost since 12/30/2010)
I haven't hit a "wall" or a "plateau" yet, thank God. That's not something I'm focused on. It could happen, it couldn't happen, so I'm not going to start this thing off negatively.
Many random things happened within the last week that made realize that this IS a lifestyle change. I will clipping coupons ( I determine to be one of those monster couponers. lol) and I came across a coupon for $1 off Edwards mini pies. I remember that I used to eat one with every meal. I would clear the frozen foods shelf of the apple ones. I would eat them and drink hot cocoa and watch TV in a house that I was fighting my everything to stay in. They were part of my gaggle of comfort foods.
I started to cry.
I didn't see it then, but I was comforting myself emotionally with food. I was living in a house that I couldn't afford and hustling to stay there so that my kids would have there own home. The greedy beast I was fighting against was my very own relative who eventually took all the money that I had paid in rent and advance rent and spent it. Then decided I AND my kids couldn't live there anymore. I had no one to talk to, no one understood, I felt like failure. So Edwards Mini Apple Pies would save me...for the moment.
I have a list of my comfort foods that I keep in my food journal and when ever I discover a new one I forgot about, I write it down. You best believe those Edwards pies are on there. lol.
The emotions that come with emotional eating are as raw as the reasons you eat them.